Monday, August 4, 2008


A few weeks ago, I came across a new song on Hillsong's latest cd, and I have not been able to get over it. The story behind the song is very moving, and I think that is what initially captured my attention, however, the lyrics are so powerful, that the more I've listened to it, the more I am realizing that it is exactly what my heart is crying out for.


I know that God is asking me to let go of something that I've held onto for many years-something that I don't even like about myself, yet somehow have found myself defaulting to over and over again. I want to let it go-I need to let it go-it has to go. But as much as I want it gone, I am afraid. Afraid that I can't let it go-afraid of what it will take to let it go. Tonight as I was doing my Bible study, the author (Kelly Minter) was talking about the difference between surrender and trust, and how surrender is more of an issue of our wills, but trust is an issue of the heart. It hit me like a ton of bricks, that while most of my life (I say most, because I know I still have areas that I haven't completely surrendered to Him) is surrendered to Christ, I don't trust Him in this particular area that He is asking me to let go of. This lack of trust is one of the things that has kept me bound to this for so many years. But tonight, I am choosing to trust Him. I am choosing to believe that HIS ways are right, and that He is good-and just like my mother said to me today (talking about a totally different subject) whenever He asks us to surrender or let go of something, somehow He always replaces it with something far better than we could have ever imagined...ultimately, HIMSELF.

You hold my every moment,
You calm my raging seas.
You walk with me through fire,
and heal all my disease.

I trust in You,
I trust in You.

I believe You're my Healer,
I believe You are all I need.
I believe You're my portion,
I believe You're more than enough for me.
Jesus, You're all I need.


Anonymous said...

My dear daughter...I never remember saying what you say I say.
But you teach me much more than I could ever teach you. You are wise beyond your years and experience and I thank God for choosing me to be your mother.
I love you all the way to the moon.

the bryans said...

Jesus is the ultimate Healer - praise Him!

Thanks for sharing this song and your beautiful heart.

Love you,

Stacey said...

Yes, speaks to your soul. And sometimes can be so healing. I often also have a song that does that at periods of time- at perfect time. Right now mine is "Bring the Rain" by Mercy Me. I crank it- cry- hope- and come closer to Him through it. ~ stacey

Shannon said...

love you and your heart and your passion for honoring God in all realms of your life ... thank you for encouraging others in their own walks with the Lord